When I was eighteen, I came across an accident on the highway. A Jeep had taken a corner too quickly on a snow covered mountain pass, and ended up on its roof. I pulled over and ran up to the accident site to see if they needed help.
What they saw: Me at eighteen, dressed in my extra baggy JNCO jeans, wearing my kinky-ring dog collar, sporting some fabulous black nail polish, and expressing my deep love of WAY TOO MUCH eyeliner.
What they couldn’t see: At eighteen, I had lived on that pass for several years, and had helped with every snow related accident you could imagine. Also, as a First Responder, I knew we were an hour away from an ambulance, and I could help with any medical emergencies they might’ve had.
The man, who was attempting to flip the jeep back over, eyed me up and down and scoffed. “Not from you.” He turned and didn’t give me a second look.
That’s when I stopped wearing baggy jeans and collars.
When I was twenty-five, I had a faux-hawk and was working in a hospital. A baby came into the ER from an outer lying clinic. She needed a small procedure that I had performed hundreds of times. When I walked in the room, her family physician looked me up and down and asked if there was anyone else who could come instead. They went through three people, none of which had any success and all of whom caused unnecessary pain, a delay of care, and put her at further risk because one man couldn’t get over the fact that my hair stuck up in the air.
I grew my hair back out.
Now here I am, thirty-four and facing the same problem again.
I look pretty normal… even still; I was recently told that I don’t project the image my company is going for. I wear the appropriate attire, but I do so while retaining my last bit of individuality in leather jackets, Converse shoes, and sunglasses.
I’m not changing again.
We change so much for other people, to make them comfortable with us. Is it not more important that we be comfortable with ourselves? Letting my hair stick up and having a love of black doesn’t void my knowledge or experience. In fact, I rather think I am my best self when I am allowed to be myself. I bet the same is true of you.
Just a thought.